No more Back-to-School!

Ok, friends. This is the FIRST TIME IN 20 YEARS that I have not gotten ready for school.

No back-to-school shopping.

No new gel pens, colorful binders, no locker/dorm/classroom decorations, no picking out sheet music, no lesson plans, and--worst of all--no classmates.

No fellow students to meet.

No fellow teachers to greet.

No one saying "See you at recess/lunch/that boring staff meeting none of us want to go to".

And, truth be told, I am terrified.

Normally, the summer is a break. A much needed one. And the fall means getting back into "real life". But guess what? THIS IS MY LIFE NOW. Staying home with Madelyn. Taking care of the house, composing, drawing.

DOING WHATEVER THE HECK I WANT.





Sooooo....... what do I want?

O___O

....I kinda want someone older than 6 months to hang out with....

I mean, this is normal, right? Is this why play groups exist? Not so the kids can socialize, but so the Moms can socialize?

.....Right?

Maybe writing my thoughts will help me along the way. Or maybe I'll forget for four more years. Who knows. 

Here's what I do know:

I love Madelyn with all my heart. I love being her mom, and I love hanging out with her. I am grateful for the opportunity to stay home with her--not all moms get this chance. I am lucky, I am blessed, and I am discovering new things every day.

And that I would not change.

Ta-ta for now,
Sam